A thousand times

Have you any idea?
Tell me, have you?
Do you know how it feels
when you aren't allowed to cry?

Have you any idea how much
I miss you?
Do you know the moments
when you wish to die?

A thousand times I wanted to tell you
a thousand times I asked myself
if I'm right and understand you
I don't wanna play this game
A thousand times you came too close
a thousand times you hugged me tight
Now you reach out for my hand
just to shake it, I'm not blind

Have you any idea?
Tell me, have you?
Do you know how it feels
when you aren't allowed to talk?

Have you any idea
what happened?
Tell me, boy, can you see
the bridge you broke?

A thousand times I wanted to turn back
a thousand times stared at your door
thought I'm fine, would get over it
hoped I'm a fool, but don't want more
A thousand times I've seen the sparks
a thousand times I've seen a lie
Don't be afraid and hurt me, boy
just show me where's the stupid line...

A thousand people I could read
a thousand thoughts well understand
then you came into my life
put these demons in my head

I wanted to ask you,
forgot my question finally,
remembered the moment you said hello
and felt damn weak suddenly...